Works for Me - Blog #1 - SBN Samantha

Ugh. I feel like I'm testing for my 1st Degree Black Belt again.  Physically, I feel like I'm in worse shape than before my first test, and mentally and emotionally, I'm feeling all of the insecurity and lack of confidence that I felt in the past.  A lot has changed in the last 10 years...wow...10 years ago I decided to do one of the hardest things in my life, and here I am doing it all over again, but on an even higher level than ever before.

Having babies has definitely affected my physical condition, and not to complain, but the hormonal changes that I'm still going through 5 months after having Korben are seriously wreaking havoc on my mental and emotional state.  There are days that I feel like I can be a great wife and mom, and still save the world--something that's always been on my list of to dos--and others I just feel like I am going to crumble into a thousand tiny pieces. 

Here's what I know: I want to be a leader for this testing team, and I want to affect positive change in the community.  However, the path to making these things happen, keeping my sanity, and balancing my family life with testing has not yet become clear to me.  I'm hoping that writing about this struggle I'm facing will help me come up with a plan that works...at first I was thinking "works for everyone," but now I'm thinking "works for me."


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  1. MicheleMay 18, 2019 at 4:27 PM

    SBN Samantha you are definitely a leader for me. Thank you for taking the time to mentor me when I have needed it, running beside me 5 miles when I was still recovering from being sick, giving me pointers when I ask for help, taking the time to set up check point tests for the team, taking my texts late at night when I need a pep talk, teaching us all how to eat healthy, stretch and train safely and all while raising a family, keeping a home, volunteering your time teaching, etc. etc. etc.

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