Maybe Michele Is Becoming A Blogger
In my first post part of my title was "One thing I'm not is a blogger" however maybe I'm becoming one. Since my first blog I have been doing a lot of deep thinking so watch out I may be blogging daily :)
We end our martial arts classes with our Dynamic Martial Arts purpose "To develop ourselves physically, mentally and spiritually with good character". There is a physical connection between what the mind is thinking and those parts of the brain that control bodily functions. It is important to care for all three. One of my personal goals for my black belt test was to focus on my mental health As I have gotten older I have realized that I have struggled with anxiety since I was young. At the suggestion of my doctor I made the choice to take a class to learn how to help change the way I think so I can lead a mentally heather life. I am a "what if this happens?" type of person and can be a negative self-talker. The subject of our class last week (which was canceled and I didn't do the homework because I was sick) was Self Compassion In Daily Life. As I began this post I realized I have practiced my homework for my class without even opening my book or realizing it.
This last week my training has taken a turn from a physical challenge to a mental one. I was really sick with a bad cold, flu thing and have been frustrated looking at my tracking sheet for my black belt test where I track my daily exercise. For the last 7 days I have had 6 days where I haven't been able to enter any numbers at all. AND oh no! My check point test is coming up this weekend! I found myself thinking...I should be putting up numbers. I should be at class. I'm falling behind. There is no way I'm going to miss the check point test that's coming up this weekend even if I am sick. I know I won't do well at the check point test because I don't feel good. It was like a whirl wind of thoughts racing through my head making me discouraged and I had to find a way out of it. I began to talk myself through it by telling myself... It's ok. You are sick. You can make it up and if not that's ok too. If you push yourself you are going to make yourself sicker and then how will you accomplish your goal? They will understand. What if it was one of your team mates that was sick? You would totally understand why they weren't putting up numbers. You need to take care of you. I started to feel better and instead of focusing on what I couldn't do I took the time and turned my attention to non physical things that I could to do for my test like blogging, thinking about my community service project and writing my Muay Tai paragraph. I did the things that my physical schedule may not have allowed me time to do. And the check point test? Well, the Friday night before the test I received a call from my team mate Samantha. They wanted everyone on top of their game for the check point test the next day and between my sickness and the weather forecast for snow they decided to reschedule the test.
When I opened my book to do my homework today and it asked me "If I loved myself, what would I say to myself right now? How can you be compassionate to yourself?" well...HOMEWORK DONE. My positive self talk had encouraged me to take care of myself physically, mentally and spiritually. All those worries and what if's worked themselves out. The change in how I was viewing my situation allowed me to train mentally and accomplish other testing obligations.
We end our martial arts classes with our Dynamic Martial Arts purpose "To develop ourselves physically, mentally and spiritually with good character". There is a physical connection between what the mind is thinking and those parts of the brain that control bodily functions. It is important to care for all three. One of my personal goals for my black belt test was to focus on my mental health As I have gotten older I have realized that I have struggled with anxiety since I was young. At the suggestion of my doctor I made the choice to take a class to learn how to help change the way I think so I can lead a mentally heather life. I am a "what if this happens?" type of person and can be a negative self-talker. The subject of our class last week (which was canceled and I didn't do the homework because I was sick) was Self Compassion In Daily Life. As I began this post I realized I have practiced my homework for my class without even opening my book or realizing it.
This last week my training has taken a turn from a physical challenge to a mental one. I was really sick with a bad cold, flu thing and have been frustrated looking at my tracking sheet for my black belt test where I track my daily exercise. For the last 7 days I have had 6 days where I haven't been able to enter any numbers at all. AND oh no! My check point test is coming up this weekend! I found myself thinking...I should be putting up numbers. I should be at class. I'm falling behind. There is no way I'm going to miss the check point test that's coming up this weekend even if I am sick. I know I won't do well at the check point test because I don't feel good. It was like a whirl wind of thoughts racing through my head making me discouraged and I had to find a way out of it. I began to talk myself through it by telling myself... It's ok. You are sick. You can make it up and if not that's ok too. If you push yourself you are going to make yourself sicker and then how will you accomplish your goal? They will understand. What if it was one of your team mates that was sick? You would totally understand why they weren't putting up numbers. You need to take care of you. I started to feel better and instead of focusing on what I couldn't do I took the time and turned my attention to non physical things that I could to do for my test like blogging, thinking about my community service project and writing my Muay Tai paragraph. I did the things that my physical schedule may not have allowed me time to do. And the check point test? Well, the Friday night before the test I received a call from my team mate Samantha. They wanted everyone on top of their game for the check point test the next day and between my sickness and the weather forecast for snow they decided to reschedule the test.
When I opened my book to do my homework today and it asked me "If I loved myself, what would I say to myself right now? How can you be compassionate to yourself?" well...HOMEWORK DONE. My positive self talk had encouraged me to take care of myself physically, mentally and spiritually. All those worries and what if's worked themselves out. The change in how I was viewing my situation allowed me to train mentally and accomplish other testing obligations.
I'm so glad that you're able to see the value in blogging now. :) Also, you rocked it at the special training!
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